Halloween

YAY its Halloween and I love it. Rob bought a whole lotta candy and I bet that we end up handing it all out. We are doing the downtown thing and then over to the trunk or treat at the ward. haha we will really work the Halloween route this year.

of course Rob and I are both getting sick, so we will see if the parents survive the festivities. The kiddles have already worn their costumes a few times now because of various parties. But goodness tonight is the real deal.


so stay tuned there will be more pics to follow. wooohoooo for Halloween!

Pickled Herring?

Sometimes I think I am so funny. This morning Rob was driving to work and apparently a bird with a death wish just happened to use our car as his means for suicide. The bird flew straight into the side of the car and then bounced off. So of course I told Terrie about it. and when she asked what kind of bird it was, my first thought was a penguin. Then that painted a funny picture in my mind. And I chuckled to myself. Ahhh the humor.

So I love Halloween and I am not quite sure what I should be. I was thinking maybe just a simple cat ear headband would suffice, but now because Cooper insists that Rob will be batman, he ordered a costume and I really don't want people thinking I am trying to be his Catwoman. Thats just not pretty.
So we'll see, the kids are pretty excited, and I can't wait to get them all dressed up for our party and then later for Trick or Treating. fun times fun times!

So this little Ella baby sure is a wiggler she is moving ALLLLLL the time and I am getting sore. My hips hurt, my back hurts, my tailbone hurts, everything. I am anxiously awaiting December. Rob and I were talking about how we haven't felt nervous or anxious about this delivery at all. Its actually kind of a weird feeling, I hope that means that all will be well, and not that we are just being sheltered for something huge to happen later. haha always the worrier. I do feel really at peace with this baby, like she has just been waiting to join our family. I think she will be our little peacemaker. I don't know why I feel that way, I just do and I am excited to meet her.

I never post pictures and thats just boring, so here are a few for your viewing pleasure.


Cooper Being a Ham face


Aleksia after a practice face painting session. She loves being a model

Rob made "ugly cake" for our eating pleasure. Its not pretty, but it tastes like heaven.

Alrighty thats all for now.
I'm out.

Catching up

So its been a long while since I have been here. I don't know that anyone reads this, and that's not really why I started this, but still, I should update nonetheless.
So I am now primary Secretary, and I am learning some really great lessons. I am learning to prioritize and make adjustments so that I can take care of my family and my church responsibilities and not have either feeling neglected.

Rob and I have discovered a fantastic new date night. haha we watch Heroes DVDs of season one. I love having something that both Rob and I are "in to" its been good. no matter how dorky.

I love my husband so much and I am so impressed with him always. He never runs out of patience with me. He never criticises he never puts me down. He just loves me always. I just didn't even know that anyone was capable of such unconditional love. I have wanted it my whole whole life and I have had it for the past 7+ years, and wow I am so thankful.

Of course that doesn't mean that makes life fluffy and cheerful all the time. I still have my moments and I still have my darkness that I am continually dealing with. I feel like I received some answers, but I don't know really. Sometimes I just want to forget about it all, and then some days its all I think about. I am thankful that my dreams haven't been so horrendous lately, I feel like I have a little more insight and understanding into them. But of course I don't really know. I chickened out and still haven't talked to Rob about it. I don't know if I am waiting till the next breakdown, or if I just want to never let it affect me. But it does.

I emailed my sister to ask her what she remembered from our childhood. She I think was faced with a lot more than I ever was, and her truths were hard to digest. It makes me angry that dysfunctional people can so carelessly become parents and inflict sickness and dysfunction onto their children, who then have to pick up the pieces and try to be contributors to society. I have so much anger towards all of my "parents" I feel like I just want to yell at all of them and blame them for all of this unbalanced emotion that I deal with. But I know that not one of them would stand up and take any sort of responsibility for any actions they took while I was growing up.

argh, anger does nothing constructive. And I know I have to let it go. So I take a deep breath and for today, I move on.

so all is well with our little bundle of baby, I can't wait to meet her. I am so anxious to hug her and kiss her. I cannot wait to introduce her into our family. It will be so fantastic. Everything has been going well with the pregnancy and I am thankful to be passed the yucky feeling stage. I am ALOT more uncomfortable, but its fun to feel kicklings and amazing acrobatics in my tum tum. My blood test came back low on iron, so I am on that. Funny I am so anemic with girls, and that would explain the complete exhaustiveness. But I am feeling pretty good overall. So I am happy.

I am looking forward to conference, we are going to Rob's parents house and that is hard for me sometimes because we don't really get a good chance to feel the spirit, there is just weird contention there with Rob's dad. But I am really needing to have some good insight, so I will try my best to get the most out of conference that I can. and it is nice to always have the whole family dinner thing. Of course there will be a bunch missing, but it should still be good.

i will update more soon, and post pics of aleksia's b-day party on the 12th and then Halloween. Should be a fun month for sure. I love Halloween!